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Photo credit goes to my sister Katelyn. I needed a picture for this post, so I thought a picture of my horse in the act of non-surrender might be appropriate. He did surrender later on, and I have some cool pics to show you guys over on my Facebook page once I get my computer issues straightened out.
Back at Easter, I wrote a post detailing how God was working with me on the issue of surrender (you can read the post here). I felt like I had surrendered most things in my life…obviously there is always room for improvement, but I felt good about the progress I had made with God’s help. I still feel good about that progress, but God has taken this teaching thing to a whole new level, and boy did this latest lesson hit home.
This whole blogging thing has taken off far faster than I ever would’ve thought it would. In fact, it’s become a nice part time job that I can work on from home (which is great, because I’m a homebody). I’ve really gotten into blogging, and I can spend far too much time on it if I allow myself to. Perhaps this is why God allowed my computer to lock up.
Please note that this is a new laptop that is locking up. My old one crashed in February. Crashed, as in, the computer itself was 4 years old and slow as molasses, and I kept getting viruses, and then I got something called a Crypto Virus that encrypted all my files. I lost pretty much everything (and no, they weren’t backed up. Can we say stupid?). So I got a new computer and moved on. Like Job I was able to say, “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away…blessed be the name of the Lord.” It was a little tough to swallow, but I surrendered it surprisingly easily.
So I get a new computer that is lightning fast and pretty amazing. Everything is hunky dory and I hadn’t quite gotten around to backing up my files that I was accumulating (I’ve only had the computer for three months!)…when POOF! One day I went to restart the computer because it was being slow, and I haven’t been able to boot up since. I’m currently not sure what the problem is, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to retrieve my files. Now thankfully since I hadn’t backed up my stuff yet, I had kept most of my recently-taken pictures on memory cards, but if I can’t get these files back, I’ll lose all the editing work I did. Ouch. And I’ve been unable to use my computer for about a week now, which means that I’m working off of other people’s computers. Slow computers. Computers with issues and keyboards that feel foreign. It’s bad news for a blogger, folks.
It’s been pretty tough to swallow, I admit. I feel like I’m getting really behind in everything I need to do, and then there’s the uncertainty of what’s going to happen to all my info (and to someone with OCD, uncertainty like that really stings). This week I’ve realized just how much time I was spending on my blog…
And God reminded me, “Remember what you said about surrender?”
Surrender was a refrain that was constantly in my head for awhile…and then I got busy, especially with blogging things, getting ready to leave home for the summer…and I kind of forgot. Or at least put the topic on the back burner. Well guess what…God wanted that kettle on the front of the stove to be constantly watched. So He did something about it, and I’m so glad He did. Because you know what? All the blog posts and all the business and all the pictures in the world won’t make up for a hard heart that isn’t surrendered to God in every area. Experiencing the loss of my pictures, my information, my memories-not once but twice-has really put life back into perspective for me. Really, what does it matter in the grand scheme of things? I sure do hope that God never quits giving me wake-up calls when I need them most.
I hope you all will give me a little grace as I struggle to get my blogging done as I am currently without my own computer. I ask for your prayers that I’ll be able to recover my information and get a working computer back soon. God does care about those things! I had a strawberry delight recipe all said to post today, but I’ve decided to wait a day or two to see if I can get my computer working again so I can edit the pictures properly. Picmonkey, while it has its place, just doesn’t fit the bill.
Again, I am so thankful for what God has taught me through all this. 1) I was spending too much time focusing on blogging. It can be done in less time than I think. 2) Things don’t really matter. God and eternity are literally all I need. 3) Back up whatever information you don’t want to lose. 😛
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